A grandparents grief, in memory of Leah Rose
I don't mean to be a downer but I just don"t know where else to go to express my grief. Wednesday June 14th, my grandaughter was still born...just 3 days before her due date. And while I grieve for the loss of my granddaughter, my heart aches for my daughter. I wasn't there when my daughter was told on her doctor visit that there was no longer a baby heartbeat. In fact she was alone because it was just a routine visit. We had just had a baby shower the 2 days before...and my daughter was showing everyone how the baby was kicking. I was however with her throughout the induced labor. The hardest part was seeing my little girl sobbing in grief while holding her little girl. For the first time in my life, I had no words of wisdom to makes the pain stop, and I couldn't fix her problems.There is no reason the doctors could find for the baby to die...they kind of explain it like SIDS before birth.
It's been a week now and my daughter seems to be holding up. We got through the funeral ok. She has 2 other children at home that help her keep her mind occupied. She has a wonderful support to help her (not too many out there for grandparents)....I live an hour away and I feel helpless and numb now. I am trying to get my interest back in my roses(or anything else) because I know they have always been a comfort and I know the good people here will also keep me smiling. So with that I say thank you to all of you for letting me post here and releasing some of my sorrow. Tammy