My DH is gone
Today is my first day alone since my Ted passed on the 22nd following a brief hospitalization. Through that week that he was in the hospital and on through another week leading up to this past weekend's Memorial gathering for him, I have been surrounded by my sons, DIL, grandkids, my sister and many dear friends. Today it was time to return to work - for everyone - and I came home to just the dog and cats and a very quiet house. I've had a good cry and then decided to come here, where you've all been there for me before in times of joy and sorrow. Tomorrow after work I will try to get out into the gardens. Lord knows there are plenty of weeds to keep me busy out there as I search for peace, but I'm not even sure I will be able to stay here and so being in the garden is bittersweet as well. He was only 59 years old and the day he died was just 2 days shy of our 35th wedding anniversary. He's been my very best friend since I was 16 years old and I miss him so.