Tough day in the garden today...
I'm used to the garden being the place where all my troubles go away. But today was a tough day. First, I have an area where the mid section is all roses, with holly hocks in the back for height. For the past 2 years, the holly hocks have to fight through being chewed to bits from snails - but they do finally make it through. Today I finally saw the snails!!! I was weeding and intermixed around the weeds at ground level were so many families of snails - all different sizes. Not knowing what to do, and refusing to put out anything poisonous - I proceeded to crush them with my hands. Every one I could find. ICK. Then I started wondering if they had little snail brains, and I was committing genocide on an intelligent species, and started feeling really guilty.
Then, I have learned patience with the roses. I have not shovel pruned a single one, and it seems I keep getting rewarded for either moving them, or just waiting on them. But those danged gardenias. I LOVE gardenias. I so want to grow them. I have had 3 veichii's, and last year bought a mystery and augusta for god only knows what reason. I have no idea why I waste my time - gardenias hate me, hate my climate, and hate my soil. And today - looking at a veichii that I've pampered for 3 years stareing pathetically back at me with its sparse, burned, chlorotic leaves - I yanked it out of the ground. So, another thing I killed today.
When the very needed rain subsides today, I think I need to go stare at the rose buds, and I'm sure I'll feel better.