Losing a Friend
I wanted to write you all yesterday about this, but didn't have the emotional stability to even get some words down.
Yesterday morning, I made the decision to put my best friend, Leather Marie, my older Dobie, down. I knew it was time (it had been coming for some weeks), and seeing her yesterday morning sealed my decision. I made an appt with the vet, brought her in, discussed options and prognosis for improvement at length. When it became clear that the time was now, I opted for peaceful euthanasia.
And, yes, I was a total mess-- a crying, heaving, I-can't-let-go-of-her animal lover. We spent 13 wonderful years together and she was truly my faithful friend through some turbulent years.
I still have Dee, of course, but the house today isn't the same. I get emotional at triggers--seeing her bowl, offering treats to "one" instead of two, not having her underfoot. Poor Dee is confused, too, suddenly unsure of her place in the pack. We're sharing sorrow and loss.
I know many of you here are animal "people" and understand the emotions wrapped up in loving and losing a close friend and loyal companion. My little memorial garden will now be expanded to include one more, and I will plant one of my WS'd perennials to help me remember her.
Say a little prayer for me and Leather Marie as we both move on to the next stage in our lives.