The last straw
tiffy, if you see this, can you email me and tell me which province you are in, nothing more? I don't want to live close to you but Nova Scotia appeals to me and is a little nicer climate in parts of it. Or I might go to Wisconsin where the birch trees are or New Hampshire.
I want to change my whole life. Everything I worked for the last 4 or more years is trashed - see link. I'm letting a few people down because I don't have the energy to package it up for trades or giveaways in light of all the other things I have to deal with.
There's a lot more to it, serious family issues that have torn me apart, my wealthier sister and brother-in-law, and my adult children, my son especially about my share of farm property I own that skyrocketed to over $1 mil. I hate the one place and don't want it or the hassles that go with it, thought I was destined to have the other one but there is a settlement valuation issue due to the difference in assessment between the two. Once I dreamed of making either or both of them beautiful with flowers trees and shrubs, but can't do it by myself for sure.
I found out we've been growing GM crops, wasn't happy about it, but was ok with it for awhile. Now I'm not, and it's hugely complicated, but growing the conventional way is risky now due to the power of agri-business and their battery of lawyers who will sue you if your conventional crops get contaminated with the GM stuff from the pollen. A farmer in western Canada had to pay a $400,000 settlement on his soybeans because they accused him of using their seed which is patented. They trespass onto your property, steal samples, and if they find the gene in any of it or even volunteers, well some people in the US have almost lost their farms over it, have to settle for whatever they say.
I've been researching it; evidently there are pros and cons, but the bottom line is I don't want to eat the stuff and it doesn't even say on the label if it has GM ingredients. The most important thing is that we do not know the environmental or unintended consequences long-term or what it does to our bodies, more the young ones are an issue as I'm old so it doesn't matter so much if I eat it.
I think that's part of the reason we've lost our honeybees and endangered the Monarch butterflies and probably a whole lot else. But it's a little more complex than that, save it for another time.
Losing my beautiful tree was the last straw. This place will never be the same without it, and planting a new one since I didn't want to pay an extra $1000 to grind the stump, I will never see it get big enough to be as nice as that one was. I kept it going as long as I could, but a huge limb came down. Now my whole backyard looks like a war zone, and it wiped out most of my winter sowing. What's left, the labels on most of it are all mixed up. That tree was always such a comfort to me except a few times big limbs came down. Seems like until this latest, they always fell in such a way that little damage was done.
Oh, ha ha. My Ultima Morpho pansies mostly germinated but they all look like johnny jump ups. No blue in them at all, lavender and yellow. Those are blooming in their containers, and my Cherry Brandy rudbeckia in a jug is about ready to bloom. I saved seeds from the one, and none of the three came back this spring.
And to add insult to injury, I got 3 black and blue salvia plants from Burpee. They are very healthy, still in their pots and blooming. But they aren't blue either. They're purple.
So all that is why I haven't been around here lately.
Just because I'm up to my eyeballs with my own problems doesn't mean that I haven't paid close attention to the disaster in the gulf, have huge empathy for the people, wildlife, and prayers are about all I can offer.
Here is a link that might be useful: My tree, arborist said it was over 100 years old